Memorial Day

Just wanted to use my blog today to say thank you to those who fought for our freedom. Thank you to the family and friends of those fallen soldiers, for giving us your loved ones to fight for our continued freedom. It seems strange to me that the word is freedom...because there is nothing free about it. Please take a moment today to bow your head and be thankful for all those who fight to keep us safe and free.

Wordless Wed

A new week begins!!

Wow what a busy few weeks... The girls made their First Communion on the May 15, it was nice they are growing up so fast. The visits with the family was great..made me realize how much I do miss them quirks and all. So now I get to buckle down and start packing again.....I want to just snap my fingers and have it all packed...but now I have to do it...lol Let the stress begin!!!!

TGIF....I think

What a crazy few weeks....life is hectic as usual, but thats life. The girls first communion is fast approaching, it is May 15th. Menu is planned,dresses,shoes,pictures all check!! Cake is being done by me...My father arrives early next week, Mom is law, brother in law and mom in laws friend arrive wed..dad staying with us, others at hotel. I think I have it all together for that...at least one thing is together..lol

My brain along witht he rest of me are fried after last weekend, I spent the weekend at camp for work, I was in a tent unit with 23 13 and 14 year olds..it was shall I say a challenge and rewarding all wrapped up into one. It was HOT!!! and STICKY!! Not to mention not only do you have to deal with mosiquitoes, but here in tents you have to deal with fire ants, between the two you could play connect the dots all over my body...and I do mean all over....UGGGGGG!!

For me this week I cut and dyed my hair....love my new color..not sure about style...but oh well it will grow!!!!!

The house is on the market...we have had one couple come to look at it..and a investor still showing interest..fingers crossed!!! Its very difficult to keep it show ready though with a toddler and two nine year olds....

We have continued to have some issues with Meghan, which just has me soooooo stressed and feeling inadequate as a mom at times....we have decided that it is time for some sort of counseling for her...so today I am looking into that....a scary thing as a parent to do!!! But we cant do it alone anymore and nothing we try is helping her..... Some people tell me its my mom looking down challenging me the way I challenged her....but I was never this bad!!! Even my dad says so..lol

The girls are both in a play..its exciting to see them sooooooo excited, cant wait to see it on the 21st...will definately post pictures!!!!!!!!

Wordless Wednsday...My Hams

Wordless Wed...The many colors of spring in Fl

Monday's

Gotta love Monday's. Here I sit Kathy wide awake...she was alot of the night compliments of the storms we had all night. At one point during the night I had 2 kids and 2 pets as close to my lap as they could get and 1 child and husband sleeping away.

Around 2am my husband comes out like he is king tut, yelling at the kid to get over it and go to bed, takes the baby and puts her back in bed and treats me like I was an idiot..then he goes back to bed and is snoring in seconds again..and then I was left with 2 kids crying from their rooms and 2 animals still on top of me.

Let me say these were pretty impressive storms, I was even sitting her uncomfrotable by them...so of course the toddler and child that has always been terrified of storms were up.

I love my husband very much, but sometimes he just doesnt get it. He has so many fears in his own life, yet he is so hard on the girls when they show signs of any fear. Not sure what to do there!!!

Ok my early morning rant is over.

Wordless Wed

LIFE..........?????

Well time as sure flown by in my life....

A year ago I was looking for a house in Florida and packing to move there with my family to start a new life for us as a family....now here almost a year later..I am doing the same thing only in reverse....life sure can throw some curve balls at you.

Here I am loving the warmth and sun and fun of Florida and trying to make it the best for my family, only to find out they are all miserable. My husband has been so depressed that all he wants to do is sleep. The kids love the vacation aspect of Florida and dislike everything else. And I was ignorat to it all...they say ignorance is bliss...well thats not totally true. I knew my husband was miserable and was hoping that he would come around. I was being selfish...I miss my friends and family in Michigan, but I had been away from my best friend the person I see as my sister for 12 years and I was loving being with her...my body loves being warm, I feel younger and have more energy here,I know I sound like a old lady.

I have learned alot though about myself, my marriage, being a mom and wife. Since the day I found out about being pregnant with the twins they were my everything and I gave my everything to protect them and keep them safe and do whats best for them. When I got married and had Kathy I felt the same all over. When we moved down here it was to help out marriage and help us grow as a family, and get away from winter, it was the best thing for my family at that time.

Now what is best for my family is to move back to Michigan. I had a moment there when I thought well I dont really want to go back..but then thought you are a mom and wife and its not about you its about what is best for your family....so here we are selling our house and moving back to Michigan.. I am torn about it...but am doing like I should whats best for my family...but it occured to me...its been forever since its been about me....and the funny thing is I am ok with that....how funny is that??? When did we grow into adults....I missed it....lol

Wordless Wed

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY TWINS

Wow..time flies..my babies are 9 years old today..I can't beleive it. It seems like only yesterday that they were born and here we are 9 whole years later. I am so proud of them and in awe of what wonderful young woman they are becoming!!! Minus the attitude of course....I look forward to watching them continue to grow!!

Why Me

We a great week last week while the kids were on spring break. We went to Animal Kingdom on Monday and checked out a local flea market (it of course was mostly touristy type items) Tuesday we had a quiet day at home working on Elaine's diaroma for the Sunshine state readers contest. Wed we had the girls first communion pictures taken and went to dinner(they chose wings) only my kids!!! Thursday we loaded (an I mean loaded up the van) and headed to clearwater to the beach for the day. It was a first for the girls and they had a good time. Elaine was ready to go and headed right out in the water with Dave, they went all the way out to the bouys a few times. Meghan was afraid(I often wonder how I got such a fearful child) Kathy loved the sand and threw it happily for hours yelling "yea" each time she did, but when it came to the water she was not interested at all. She did not like the waves at all, Dave and I took her out in the water a few times and she was not a happy camper, I tried to let her stand were the waves would just wash over her feet and she did not like that, in fact we discovered she could climb me very quickly!!!

On Friday we went to DeLeon State Park, it has a natual spring for swimming. It was pleasant and refreshing after the salt water beach the day before, and Kathy loved the water this day. We didnt get to eat at the sugarmill like we wanted because we got there so late. Compliments of holiday weekend traffic what should have taken us an hour took over 3 hours to get there. So we spent about 3 1/2 hours in the spring,swimming,playing, sitting on the big innertube and then headed home.

Saturday we rested and finished up on Elaine's diaroma for school.

Sunday, Easter Sunday we were planning a nice quiet needed day of board games, Movies whatever the girls wanted as it was the end of spring break for them, and Kathy, Meghan and Mom wake up feeling under the weather. I cooked us a nice simple Easter dinner. Ham, curried potato salad and fresh green beans. We enjoyed the peace and quiet!!

Monday the kids were back to school and Kathy and I were happy as we slept alot of the morning away(both feeling kinda crappy!!)

Tuesday kids off to school and Kathy and I slept again alot of the morning. The kids had their first play practice after school and I didnt need to pick them up till 6pm. During the day Dave started to feel pretty sick too. He went to work and I went off to a parent meeting for the play. Needless to say we pulled back in the drive at the same time, he had been sent home for being sick. Now at this point I am thinking ok we should start feeling better and no one is..I'll give it another day. (I hate going to the doctors if we can let something run its course at home)

Wed the older girls both have over 100 temps sore throats and coughs...so here we are family PJ sick day. Once again I am thinking ok I have been sick since Sun enough is enough..I should be getting better!!! WRONG another sleepless couging miserable sore throat night(I am talking the sore throat where you feel like  you are swallowing rust nails) So this morning I called the doctor and four of us have appointments at 2pm today.

I remember when a doctor would see one or two in a family and treat all if the symptoms were the same...I guess those days are no more. I know everyone is sick, but it kills me to have to pay over 100 for all to be seen and then have topay for everyones scripts. Why do we pay for health care coverage when it still costs so much out of pocket?? I just dont get it!!!!!!

OK enough of my ranting..sorry all

Twins

I love having twins, but I swear they are slowly driving me bonkers. When I was pregnant with them I read everything about twins and what to expect, and boy my girls are nothing like anything I read. They don't get along, they never had their own language, heck for the most part they really don't like each other. We had hoped that moving them into their own bedrooms and giving them their own space would help them learn to get along and appreciate each other. WRONG!!!!

They are on spring brerak this week, so Dave and I thought we would plan some fun activities for them and take advantage of some of the things Florida has to offer other than Disney. Today was the only Disney day we planned and we went to Animal Kingdom. We always try to do what the girls want to see and do at the parks. We wernt even at the park an hour and the girls were fighting, we dont just get arguing ir bickering we get fighting...and then of course when we discipline them the major ATTITUDES start.

I dont know about any of you. but I dont think our attitudes were ever as big as my girls seem to be (and its not just them) I work with 6,7,8 th graders regulary and I am appaled at the attitude the way these kids treat teachers and volunteers and know that our you know whats would have been grass, and my kids know better but yet they still act this way, because they see other kids acting that way and getting away with it. I follow thru with my punishments so my kids know we mean buisness, but alas it doesnt seem to penetrate past the punishment.

They each get their one on one time with Dave and I, they are so different and we treat them different. Punishments and rewards are adapted to each girl. I am so wore out from being a constant referee, uggggg

Ok I have ranted enough..if you have made it this far thanks!!!

Exhausting

WOW..what a busy few weeks, we enjoyed our cruise, but it was back to the grindstone this week. The girls had their last religious ed classes this week. We are looking forward to them making their first Communion in May..my babies are growing up. Flordia is growing on me, the girls and I love it, Dave isnt happy, but hey we shall see. I love being so close to Disney,beaches, and such. There is so much to do!! The kids are on spring break this week( they have spring week the week before the rest of the US here so that the local kids are in school when the mobs decend on Fl). We have some great activities planned..we are going to goto Animal Kingdom, the beach and this great sounding state park JoAnn found out about. I am sure I will have plenty of pictures after!!!!

This blogging is pretty new to me,we'll see if I can keep up!!!